Tuesday, December 31, 2013

PURPOSE: A look in the past year

I sometimes cannot comprehend the things that happen around me. Ewan ko nga ba pero parang lahat ng tao blessed pero ako parang binagsakan ng mga problema ng mundo.

Part 1: PAIN

  • Kinapos yung Semestral Grade ko ng by 0.02 para makapasok sa Dean's List kaya ayun, 1st time ko mawala sa Dean's List Since 1st Year 1st Sem noong 2nd Year 2nd Sem
  • Got rejected by a girl na nagka crush sakin once at naging crush ko din kaso di yoon nangyari ng sabay. Rejected by some "age" issues...Baka daw kasi i-judge kami ng ibang tao.
  • Got rejected by a girl of the same batch kaso ibang college. Maganda ang relationship namin noong 2012. This rejection is the MOST PAINFUL and kahit alam ko na wala akong pag asa sa kanya noong bandang April pa lang, hanggang ngayon, ang sakit padin.
  • Nalaman kong yung isang girl na nagpapasaya sakin ay may nagpapasaya na sa kanya.
  • Nalaman kong ayaw nung isang girl sakin.
  • Been rejected since 1994
  • Naalala ko pa. Yung isa kong ka community, nirereject na ako purkit may pinupuntahan lang akong ibang community. Sabi pa nya: "Ganyan tayo eh, kay _____ ano ka na lang. Di ka na ___" Though pabiro lang ang intention nya, sobrang sakit. Akala ko ba sa community na ito, tanggap ka kung sino ka eh bakit parang di nila tanggap kung ano mga pinupuntahan ko kahit almost same setup lang naman yung dalawang communities na yoon. Isa to sa dahilan kung bakit di ako nagpapaka active dito sa community na ito eh.
  • Nasabihan na wala akong kwentang mag lead kahit na sobrang hirap na ako sa pagsusubok na galingan ang pag lelead ko.
  • Lagi na lang nilalait height ko. Minsan nga, yung isa kong ka close na friend, medyo nalait yung stature ko. Ayun, medyo nainis ako sa kanya lalo na at na timing na bad mood ako
  • Para bang ayaw makinig sa iyo ng mga tao
  • Paminsan minsan, feeling ko wala na akong friend na malalapitan. Lahat sila wala nang time sakin. Even my family
Marami pa akong pighati na naranasan pero sabi nga, "In your pain, your purpose shall be revealed". Yun na lang ang pinanghahawakan ko.

Part 2: PURPOSE
  • Though sa community na naramdaman kong rejected ako, may ilang members parin doon na tanggap ako kung sino ako.
  • Nakapag talk ako sa 2 camps na may mga 30+ participants
  • Nakapag share ako sa isang event na may 300+ audiences
  • Nakakapag inspire ako ng tao
Though na mas masakit ang taon na ito compared sa 2012, alam kong mas nakita ko ang purpose sakin ni God this 2013 at mas makikita ko pa iyon sa 2014.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Random Thoughts #24

SOMEDAY, If God's will, I will be like this...

I will be a loving father to my wife and children...
I will be a loving leader that will bring out the best in other people...
I will be a loving encourager that believes not on the past of other people but on the bright future they have in life...
I will be a loving speaker that will proclaim how great is our God...

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Through the lessons brought by the pain in my life, I WILL BE ONE OF THE MOST LOVING PERSON IN THE WORLD!

Random Thoughts #23

I WANT to have a SIGNIFICANT LIFE, not just to myself, my friends and family, and my community, but also to the WHOLE WORLD. I want to have a life that will make the whole world realize the beauty of life. I want to have a life that will inspire the world to be PROUD of the uniqueness every creature has. I want to have a life that will make the whole world thank the One who has given every thing in this world a life full of joy.

I may be famous and known by the world or maybe I won't be famous...but that's okay. The important thing is, I made the One who made me, FAMOUS and KNOWN to the WORLD.