Well, It's been a while since I post here and well, may things had happened to my life.
Just to update, I am able, with the help and for the glory of God, to fulfill some of my dreams. I am graduated Cum Laude in a prestigious school here in the Philippines, I am able to bring my mother to Feast, and I am able to inspire more than one thousand people to be closer to God and now, I am called by God to serve as a Volunteer Campus Missionary in UST, my Alma Mater.
Of all these blessings that I am receiving, nadedepress parin ako. Not because of kulang pero I am saddened by the fact that Well, I am rejected again. First, of my family. I felt na sometimes di naman nila ako anak kung ituring. Well, maybe, they are just hurting kaya nila ako nasasaktan. Well, I'll love them anyway and try to make their lives easier. I will work for them and serve them even when it sometime hurts. Second, rejected again in terms of heart. Pang ilan na nga uli? Nawala na ako sa bilang eh. Pero ayun, dalawa yung babae na nawala sa buhay ko simula nung huli kong post dito. Well, nagulat nga ako sa tweet ng friend ko and I quote:
"To the most loving person I know, @theo_merin! Congratulations! One day, that love will lead you to someone better :)"
Ang hirap paniwalaan? Why? Well, if you have been reading this blog ever since, you know na I've been rejected and I am an NGSB. I just love selflessly and gave my all but then I guess they have not appreciated all the things that I have done. That is why ang hirap paniwalaan. Paano ba naman, ginagawa ko na ngang mag mahal ng tama simula't sapul pero anyare? Nganga parin. I sometimes ask myself, "Why do they always look for the person they don't like. Sabi nila gusto nila ng responsible and ideal guy material pero bakit yung kabaligtaran yung hinahanap nila" Di natin alam. Hindi ko alam pero kahit kaunti na lang ang natitira, hindi parin ako nawawalan ng pag-asa at magmamahal lang ako gaya ng dati. I'll choose the right way even if I will be rejected many times more...
Sabi nga sa nabasa ko:
"Happy Ending lang ang meron. Kung hindi Happy, hindi pa Ending"
Ito na lang ang panghahawakan ko hangang huli. Na darating ang araw, people will be able to love me for who I really am. And if ever na di nila ako mamahalin at tatanggapin, na kahit na buong mundo na ang magtatakwil sakin, magmamahal parin ako ayon sa kung ano ang alam kong tama. Alam ko naman na kahit umiiyak ako dito sa lupa, nakangiti si Bro sa langit. Kahit na makasalanan akong tao, mahal Niya parin ako at dahil dun, magmamahal lang ako ng magmamahal. Kung magtitira man ako sa sarili ko, as always, 1% lang.
If you are reading or have read this, please include me in your prayers.
