SOUL FOOD: Get Nourished by His Word: Part 1

I CAN DO ALL THINGS through Christ who strengthens me

-Philippians 4:13

But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being TRANSFORMED into the same image from GLORY to GLORY, just as from the Lord, the Spirit

-2 Corinthians 3:18

No, in all these things WE ARE MORE THAN CONQUERORS through Him who LOVED us

-Romans 8:37

I cried out to You for help O Lord, my God and YOU HEALED me

-Psalm 30:2

I tell you, RISE UP, take up your mat and WALK ON

-Mark 2:11

WAKE UP, o sleeper, RISE from the dead, and CHRIST will SHINE on you

-Ephesians 5:14

For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be RAISED IMPERISHABLE, and we shall be CHANGED

-1 Corinthians 15:52

Nauulit na naman...

Last year, 2nd Sem, BUMABA grades ko, NABIGO ako at NADUROG ang PUSO, at BINALEWALA. Ngayong 2nd Sem na uli, huwag sana, pero parang nauulit uli eh. Pero ngayon, mas malakas na ako...Kakayanin ko ito. 

Random Thoughts #16

Because I'm feeling down and depressed today, I asked myself these questions: (And my perceived answers) 

Does any person that I've met in the past has given me COMPLETE WORTH and SIGNIFICANCE especially those CLOSEST to MY HEART and LIFE?

(In my own opinion, NO! Why? Because, whenever I need them, to listen to me, to comfort me, they are "missing in action". They have been preoccupied with their own happiness. Of course, I admit that sometimes  I'm also preoccupied with my own happiness whenever they ask for help but I'm trying my best to make it up to them. Another reason is that, MADALAS AKONG na ta-TALK SHIT. In other words, most of the time, people take me for granted.)

Am I ALONE?

(I feel that, indeed, I am ALONE. Though I have many friends, I still feel emptiness in my heart. I feel that no matter how many people I came across with, it seems that I'm taking this journey of life alone. Sino nga ba kasi ako sa buhay nila na para samahan ako or tulungan ako? Anyways, I remember, PEOPLE COME AND GO. Ni minsan na nga lang ako tumawa at sumaya ng wagas eh.)

What is the REASON of my EXISTENCE?

(I don't know. Why? Because I feel that no one has given any meaning to my life.)

For now, I AM BROKEN and SHATTERED. READY to GIVE UP and ACCEPT DEFEAT.

I know GOD is always there for me, loving me, and caring for me but that won't materialize if no one would be the JESUS in my life. I LONG for that PERSON who would always be there for me...

Sa lahat ng makakabasa nito na tingin mali ang mga sagot at persepsyon ko sa buhay, PLEASE, tell me. Talk to me. I JUST NEED A FRIEND to WHOM I COULD TALK TO. Sobrang kalungkutan na ito at hindi ko na to kinakayang mag-isa.

INTO LEADERSHIP

In the past, my leadership skills was VERY EMBARRASSING because my leadership is just by NAME or TITLE. I never lead other people correctly. I was USELESS. Because of this, I asked God for help and after many prayers, He answered me through this line:

"You can't lead your nation, your company, your department, your business, your group or even your kids if YOU CAN'T LEAD YOURSELF." 

-Bo Sanchez, "TAKE CHARGE, GIVE ALL", 2012

This line inspired me to continue in leading. I may not be as good as the world's greatest leaders, but I know, someday, my leadership will inspire others and will become a significant change in the world.

I AM A CHAMPION

Champions fall apart

Champions fail many times

Champions get wounded

Champions get shattered

Champions commit a lot of mistakes

Champions experience "death" in thier lives
Champions shed tears

Champions sin

but...

Champions RISE UP

Champions TRY and TRY

Champions ENDURE

Champions CHANGE

Champions do CRAZY but GOOD STUFFS

Champions LEARN

Champions LISTEN

Champions are NOT AFRAID to FAIL or FALL

Champions DO NOT GIVE UP

Champions TAKE CHARGE

Champions GIVE ALL

I may be imperfect to some, but in GOD's eyes, I AM A POWERFUL CHAMPION

HOPELESS ROMANTIC: May pag-asa pa ba ako sa iyo?

Ayun, as always. Kung nagbabasa ka ng blog ko, malalaman mo na ang buong buhay ko ay puro kabiguan lalo na sa pag-ibig. Kahit kailan hindi pa ako nag succeed. Kahit na binigay ko na ang LAHAT LAHAT, well wala padin. Saludo nga ako sa mga WALANG KWENTANG LALAKI eh. Yung mga lalaking walang ginawa kundi mangolekta ng babae, sila pa ang nagkakaroon ng lovelife. Samantalang akong itong gagawin ang lahat, ako pa ang wala.

Ayun, mukhang ewan na naman ang koya mo. Mukhang natatanga na naman. Pano ba naman kasi, di ko na maintindihan ang mga babae.

Kasi, ewan ko ba pero kasi I think nagkakagusto na talaga ako sa isang babae na mukhang tingin lang sakin ay kapatid. In other words, Familyzoned. Pero di ko parin naman ito sure. Tapos, mukhang ako lang naman ang nagkakagusto sa kanya. Mukhang ni 1% na pag-asa, wala syang pinapakita. Well, ang dami ko nang ginagawang pagpaparamdam, di pa rin sya nakakahalata. Kulang nalang talaga sabihin ko na ONCE and FOR ALL...yun nga lang, baka masaktan ako ULIT for the NTH time. Tapos, nagkukwento pa sya about sa mga GWAPONG crush nya. It breaks my heart </3 para kasing lalo akong nawawalang ng pag-asa. Pero minsan naman, parang meron akong pag-asa but then di ko alam kung may pag-asa nga ako or sadyang FRIENDZONED ako...or mas magandang sabihin, BASTED.

Alam ko naman sa sarili ko na di ako yung BF material of the Prince Charming material na inaasam ng mga babae. Yung MACHO, GWAPO, MAYAMAN, MATANGKAD, MATALINO...pero gets...lahat naman ng tao, naghahangad na mahalin ng totoo. SOBRANG LASLAS NA DRE. Ang sakit na kasi. Subok ako ng subok, dadating sa point na aasa ka kasi parang may motibo syang pinapakita, tapos malalaman mo na sadyang Tinuturing ka nyang KAPATID or close friend kaya sya ganun. <////3

Nalilito na talaga ako kung talagang AAMIN pa ako sa kanya kasi baka talagang MADUROG na naman ang puso kong nagaasam lang na mahalin ng totoo.

MAGKAKAROON PA BA AKO ng LL?!!! ANG SAKIT na kasi eh...SANA naman kasi kung talagang wala akong pag-asa, sabihin na para di na masaktan. 

An Amazing Day: IMPOSSIBLE THINGS HAPPEN

Today, we had our fieldwork at Nueva Ecija. Before this day, all I thought is that this day would just be normal - I will help in preparing and cooking the food, I will help feeding the children, I will make them happy...a typical NSTP day but something happened...

Before the departure from our school, I was talking to a close friend of mine. I asked her: "Asan ka?" She said that she is already inside of the bus and is about to leave. So, with some sort of small-sized disappointment of not seeing her even for a few seconds, I replied: "Ingat ka". By that time, I was a little bit depressed and I went inside our bus and slept. I woke up when we are already at the endpoint of SCTEX and while looking the window, I saw a bus with a label in front window. (The label indicates the section of the NSTP class) I had goosebumps when I noticed it was the bus where she is. I hoped to see her in the window but, again, I was disappointed. My depression level is now 30%. After few minutes, we had a stop-over. I went out the bus and "responded to the call" (Of course in the proper place). After that, while I was walking towards our bus, I noticed that "that bus" was also having their stop over in that place and after a few seconds, I saw her, that special friend of mine, going out of the bus. I was shocked (for about 20%) because I really never expected to see her - especially in that place. :") 

By that time, I was very happy because, not only I saw her, but also GOD showed me HOW GREAT HE IS that even how impossible a thing might look like, In HIM, nothing is IMPOSSIBLE.

Random Thoughts #15

Wala akong phobia pero may malaki talaga akong kinakatakutan, ang i-REJECT at ang IWAN...lalo ng taong mahal mo..:(

ABUNDANCE is ALWAYS OUTSIDE your COMFORT ZONE

Once again, I stepped out of my comfort zone. Why? Well, I've done again something that I really don't normally do.

Last year, I've done it many times. I joined a community where I really don't know if I will survive or not because I grew up seeing myself as a "loner" and this community is a very "socially-inclined" community so I thought I would not be compatible with it but Praise God, I'm happy that this community become my family and I love them. Second, I was called to lead other people. Again, I grew up seeing myself merely as a member but once again, I stepped out of my comfort zone because I love God and guess what, God is blessing me, up until now, with love and significance from other people especially from my "sons and daughters" ( I don't call them as my members because for me, they are more that just being a member. For me, they are more fantastic than being a part of a group in which I am leading. I love them with all I am.) 

This year, once again, I stepped out of my comfort zone. Before, I only joined a community within my city an school's vicinity but now, I joined a community wherein I will meet people from all "walks of life" Today, I joined a Youth Caring Group. Though I was intimidated during the first prayer meeting, I was happy because all of the people there welcomed me with great and genuine smile. 

Though stepping out of your comfort zone is very difficult, When you trust in God, everything will be alright. He is in charge of everything.

By the way, that community is Youth for Christ. and the small group I lead is The Dance Ministry of YFC-UST and the caring group is part of Light of Jesus Youth. I'm happy that I'm now a part of a big spiritual family. and I'm so happy to see up close and personal the son of my Idol (Bro Bo.), Bene Sanchez. (sobrang Idol ko siya! Ang bait and ang galing mag gitara!)

Shine the Light: Be the Inspiration

At first, all I want is to have a good life, be an animator at Pixar Animation Studios, be an extreme Programmer (like those protagonists you see in movies. Hehe), and many more. But when I attended FEAST, my point of view in life changed. I was inspired by these men who was used by God to inspire others...

Bro. Bo Sanchez. Author of 20 best-selling books in the Philippines (As far as I remember, that is the number), An Entrepreneur (With more than one business. I forgot the exact number), an a Catholic Preacher. Well, for me, he is not just an ordinary speaker. For me, he is one of the best! He is so fluent in english and his talks are out of this world. What I mean is, in every talk that he delivers, you'll cry or weep (Promise) especially when you listen very well. At the end of his every talk, you'll say to yourself, "parang bitin. I want more". He is inspiring not only in his talks but also with his way of life. I promise, if you'll know more about him, you'll be inspired. He is so inspiring that he really changed my life. By the way, he delivers his talks on The Feast PICC.

Bro. Alvin Barcelona. I only know little about him but I heard him deliver his talks thrice and I tell you, He is the kind of speaker that is "maka-MASA". I can say this because he try to deliver his talks in a way that ordinary people could relate to. His life story inspired me NOT TO GIVE UP. He once experienced a situation that is impossible to be solved by man but now, he conquered that situation because he believed and have a strong faith to God. He inspires people at The Feast Marilao and Feast PICC Afternoon Session.

Bro. Obet Cabrillas, a.k.a. Daddy O. He is really one of my favorite speakers. He is just so inspiring. His way of life before was "shattered" but when he started following the light of God, he was restored. He is my favorite speaker because his talks are really so powerful and really struck the hearts of the YOUTH. He always make his talks be understood and appreciated most especially by the YOUTH. If I find time, I always attend the Feast Manila or what they call "A Place where the broken heart gets healed" Indeed, that kind of healing happens in that place. My heart was shattered many times (most of them was a result of what they call "FRIENDZONED" or in tagalog, BASTED) but when I go there and listen to his talks, I felt that all the pain in my heart vanished.

Bro. Adrian Panganiban. I really know little about him. I only attended Feast Sucat once (where he delivers his talks) so I cannot tell so much about him but one things for sure, He is an inspiring and fun speaker. When I went to Feast Sucat, The talk was light in a way that I understood it easily and inspired.

Before, all I want is to thing about myself - nothing more, nothing less. But God changed that through these people. Before, I was a pessimist but when I heard ther story in life, I was inspired to continue fighting in life because, just like them, I have a CHAMPION PARTNER in life who will do everything for me. As a matter of fact, This CHAMPION PARTNER once died just to save me. This CHAMPION PARTNER is God. I believe that even though how many struggles in life I have, God will help me. 

I hope that one day, you'll meet them and be inspired. You'll never regret it. I promise :) 

Reminisce: FIRST HEARTBEAT

Today, we went to Cardinal Santos Medical Center at the City of San Juan para makapag pa check-up. Ang lala na kasi ng ubo at sipon ko. At sobrang haba ng pila sa doktor. Pang 34 ako. Kaya napagdesisyunan kong mag-ikot-ikot muna. Sa pag iikot ko, napadaan ako sa isang lugar na kung saan may naalala akong bagay...

Sa lugar na iyon, naalala ko, na isang beses nung bata pa ako, nagpacheck-up kami. At tulad ng ginawa ko, nagikot-ikot muna ako. Habang nagiikot ako, may nakita akong CUTE na babae. OO, aaminin ko, napa CRUSH (at INFATUATED) at first sight ako. Ka age ko lang naman sya noon. (mga 3 years old siguro kami nun) SOBRANG GANDA NYA! At sa sobrang ganda nya, sinundan ko sya. Kahit na malayo na ako mula sa parents ko, sinundan ko padin. Ngunit, ayun, panandalian ko lang sya nakita nun. Kasi pauwi na din sila. Pero kahit ganun, sinindan ko padin sya hanggang carpark...Masasabi kong sya ang PINAKA UNA KONG CRUSH. First time tumibok ang puso ko ng ganun. HAHAHA :)))

Ngayon, ngayon, napaisip ako: "Sigh...kamusta na kaya sya...DI KO MAN LANG NAKUHA PANGALAN". Ang ganda lang talaga ng lugar kung saan unang tumibok ang puso ko, OSPITAL :)))