Everything, Good or Bad, must come to an END

Nothing is permanent.

Today, I had confession and it was really my first time to hear a priest's advises to be so concrete and practical. I used to hear that "My son, pray for it" or what but this priest gave me practical solutions to my problems and I thanked God for that.

One thing I realized about his advises was EVERYTHING MUST COME TO AN END. Just like what I've posted earlier, I've been experiencing unbearable problems in life and I MUST NOW COME TO AN END.

 - My grades went down and was removed from the Dean's List

 - My relationship with other people especially to a very special person to me has been growing worse

 - My family sometimes treat me differently

 - My service to a charismatic group has been very difficult

 - My faith has been growing weak and my doubt has been growing strong

These are some of the problems that brought me to the rock bottom of my life but now, THIS MUST END.

Father said that some problems must be solved right away, some could be solved on the latter part. Don't solve them all at the same time. Just one problem at a time.

And now, I should focus on finding out what is my core gift and use that to make good things and on the process, I'll grow in all aspects in life. I should prioritize things. Some things really can wait. For now I'll...

I will BELIEVE IN GOD that He only wants the best for me and nothing but the best. (My problem on faith shall be solved on the process)

I will focus on bringing my grades up and I'm Claiming the Victory in God's Mighty Name that I'll be GRADUATING AS CUM LAUDE or if possible as MAGNA CUM LAUDE and if God really wants me as SUMMA CUM LAUDE, so be it. I will focus more on my studies than before especially I'll be having my certification exam this year (It's like the board exam but in a lesser degree). (My problem on grades shall be solved on the process)

I will be more loving to my family and friends and accept them whoever they are. (My problem on relationship shall be solved on the process)

I will deny myself and I will delay gratification in order to give my all to God through serving Him and other people. (My problem on service shall be solved on the process)

And lastly, I will concentrate less on LOVE LIFE. For the past years, I've been fooled by this thing. I've been concentrating on finding my "Princess" and this expedition of mine has not brought me joy for, though I've given my all to those "princess", (I've been doing all sorts of things just to make them smile, I've been awake till late night and, sometimes, even daybreak, just to talk to them, I've been spending a lot, I've been faithful to them, and I've been ENDURING THE PAIN brought by another suitors and/ or possible rejections) all I received from them is the PAIN OF REJECTION. They never reciprocated the things I gave them. (Yes! You are right! I've been rejected all the time and no one had ever given me their SWEET YES) This pain MUST END and the solution I see is CONCENTRATING LESS on this aspect of my life. Yes, It's hard for me to do this because I sometimes envy other couples that surround me (Yung iba sa couple na ito, dapat AKO YUNG GUY pero ayun nga, nganga ako) but I'll have to give this a try and I think that these rejections are ways of God to tell me that there are more things to life than these relationships. (My problem on love life shall be solved on the process)

I may fail along the way. I may fall very hard. I may hit the bedrock of my life but I know these things happened because it must and meant to happen in my life. It may be painful but this pain will make me grow to a better person. I must face the failures with faith.