OVERCOME: A look in the past year

In the year 2012, I've been in the ups and downs of life. I've been in the zone where my whole self was broken and shattered but then God is just so great in my life that He brought joy in my life and help me RISE again.

FALLING APART:

A. Falling in LOVE

This year, I've been in the zone where I thought that everything seems to be perfect but then, after some time, my heart was broken into pieces. I've done everything just to make them happy but my efforts have not been payed of. I've done every "cheezy" things during the Valentines day but it seems that Cupid's arrow did not struck both of us. I also have fallen for the person that has been closest to my heart. She knew all sorts of things about me but again, my heart was shattered. In short, You know... Third, I've fallen for a girl that seems to sometimes like me, sometimes don't. I'm really hoping that this girl will give me a chance and will not totally break my shattered heart....

B. Falling ACADEMIC PERFORMANCES

This year, I've experienced a lot of failures in terms of my academic performances. I nearly failed to maintain my standing in college (1.75, Sobrang Sabit), I've failed in my 1st quiz in Differential Calculus (11/50), I've said many irrelevant things during recitations, I got a zero in a quiz in my C++ Programming Subject, I got a low score in on of the speaking activities in  my Oral Communications Subject, I nearly failed in one of the quizzes in my Statistics and File Organization Subjects, and I got a low score at our final exams in Physics. I've failed a lot but I believe that I will RISE again...

C. Falling RELATIONSHIPS

This year, I've been a reason for some broken relationships. I lied to my friends and classmates. I've taken their good attitude towards me for granted. I've been an imperfect son to my parents. I've been an unloving brother. I have never been a perfect "social person". I really have a hard time being sociable but I know I WILL...

(some PAIN and DEPRESSION are not written here)

RISING UP:

Although there have been so much pain that happened to me, I's still so blessed by God.

A. Greatest Birthday EVER

SEPTEMBER 14, 2012 It was a typical Friday. Wala akong ineexpect na kahit ano. As in WALA. Noong nasa school ako, my friends keep on asking me, "Theo, ano plano mo tomorrow? Birthday mo ah. Saan tayo bukas?" Wala akong maisagot. Kasi naman walang wala akong pera tsaka I decided to celebrate my Birthday with the less fortunate. After class, umuwi ako sa tita ko and then pumunta ako sa SM Manila para mag "The Feast Manila" I decided kasi na I'll have a pre-celebration with God. Sa sobrang saya ko, nag gm ako but then mali ang nasend ko. Nasend ko ung drafts ko na kung saan galit ako. Ewan. Tas nagulat ako na ung isa kong friend na si Iya ay tinext ako. Sabi niya pupuntahan daw niya ako. Sobrang saya ko kasi I never thought na pupuntahan niya ako. Sobrang saya kasi nadala ko siya sa Happiest Place on Earth. Sobrang saya kasi First time nya umatend ng The Feast.

SEPTEMBER 15, 2012 Ito na ang araw na pinakainaantay ko. Sobrang excited na ako pumasok kasi gusto ko maranasan ang "Happy Birthday" na boses sa gate ng school but then, kakalungkot lang kasi nasuspend ang klase. Pero aun, naging maligaya uli ako kasi nilibre ako nila Jom, Jed, Kim, at Bestest Chris sa UAAP UST vs ADMU ticket. Saya lang kasi First time ko un na live. (Yun nga lang, talo UST) Pero di pa un ang best part. Ang best part noong araw na iyon ay syempre nung dinagsa ako ng surprises. Una, kay Nay Sheree. Nasurprise ako kasi todo effort sya sa message. Ang haba :) tas may pic ko pang ewan :P. Pangalawa, sa surprise artwork sakin ni Idol Nina :) Sobrang tuwa lang ako kasi todo effort talaga sya sa pagbati :"> At syempre sa surprise sakin ni Bestest Chris at si Pam :") Todo silang nagulit sa mga kaklase ko nong High School at College para sa mga message nila. Sobrang tuwa talaga ako sa mga efforts nila :"> Sobrang saya din kasi Ang dami ding bumati sa akin sa text, tawag (Namely Athena), fb, twitter at personal greetings. ANG SAYA TALAGA!

SEPTEMBER 16, 2012 Aun, Post celebration ko sa The Feast PICC syempre with my closest and most treasured na kaibigang lalaki, si Monch. Sobrang sya lang ng araw na iyon kasi todo kami kwentuhan lalo na sa aming mga buhay puso :"> ALAM NA :))))) Aun, may mga bumati parin.

SEPTEMBER 17, 2012 Pumasok lang ako bilang isang ordinaryong mag-aaral. Wala na akong ineexpect kasi alam ko ng tapos na ang kaarawan ko. But then, my YFC-UST FAMILY surprised me! Lalo na si Partner Maan, Ate Armin at Kuya Klenk. Sobrang saya ko lang. Todo Effort talaga si Partner Maan sa pagsurprise sakin :") Kinumpleto lang nila ang araw ko. Tas si Gerika pa. I never thought na sobrang ganun ako magiging mahalaga sa kanya. Kakakilala ko lang kasi sa kanya but then sobrang feeling ko napakahalaga ko sa kanya. Sobrang thankful din ako sa kanya kasi binigyan nya ako ng book. Kahit na hindi talaga ako pala basa, binabasa ko un. Sobrang tinetresure ko lang kasi ung regalo nya. Sa araw din na ito sobrang naging masya ako kasi at last, NATUPAD na yung pangarap kong mai-spend ang aking kaarawan kasama ang mga less fortunate. Kakalungkot lang kasi kahit na pinakain mo na sila at lahat lahat, mas gusto parin nila ang pera...sigh....

(18th: I never thought I would be this special)

B. Attending the BIGGEST CATHOLIC INSPIRATIONAL EVENT of the Year for FREE

Hindi ko alam pero kasi gusto kong makapunta ng Kerygma Conference 2012: Champions, Arise! pero kasi ang mahal ng ticket pero praise God, NAKAKUHA AKO NG LIBRENG TICKET!!! ANG GALING LANG NI LORD! Now, I'm  part of the thousands who attended the BIGGEST CATHOLIC INSPIRATIONAL EVENT OF THE YEAR!!!! (18,000+ Champions Gathered together Praising ONE VICTORIOUS GOD)

Highlights to what happened in the Kerygma Conference 2012: Champions, Arise!

C. Attending CFC-YFC Metro Manila Conference 2012

Well, this is my first time to attend MetroCon. I really don't know what to expect but it turn out to be fun. (Sa totoo lang, wala akong ligo dito ^_^)

Me with my YFC-South B9 Family

Me with my YFC-UST Family during MetroCon

D. Dancing Eternally For You

This Family is indeed my most CHERISHED and my most LOVED Family and I'm so blessed to be given a chance to lead this family :)

Picture Picture muna! Backstage moments :) [Look there! My crush :")) Ganda niya no? :)) ]

Christmas Party of DEFY. (Medyo kakakilig tong picture na ito :">)

Me and My Partner :)

E. YFC South B9 Youth Camp

At last, I'm now a certified YFC!

F. LIVELOUD Worship Concert

This is my first time to attend a worship concert and though I don't know some of the songs, I had fun

G. Being one of the Best

This is my first time to receive an academic excellence award since grade school

I'm so happy to be in the Dean's List :) Thank you Lord! All the Glory are Yours!

H. My first Evers

   I. Pasig Run 2012

      I never thought I would be a part of a fun run.

:">

:")))

   II. Milk Tea

      I never thought Milk Tea tastes good 

Nina, ang unang nagpainom sakin ng Milk Tea :"">

   III. My First Ever Unlimited Desserts

      Unlimited Desserts at Love Desserts

My BESTEST Friend :)

   IV. First time to lead a worship

      I never thought I will be a worship leader

There are so many blessing in life that I can't put them all in here.

This year is not as perfect as I want it to be but this year thought me so many things in life. This includes being humble, Loving other people unconditionally, and serving God with your all. I look forward to a great 2013. I wish that 2013 will be far greater than 2012.

Wake up, sleeper, RISE from the DEAD and CHRIST will SHINE on YOU. -Ephesians 5:14 

I cried out for HELP and you HEALED me!: My Living 'Feast' Testimony

In the past weeks, sobra akong stressed. Paano ba naman, quiz dito, quiz dyan, assignment dito, assignment dyan, mabababang grades, medyo bigo ako kay Crush, kabilaang gawain sa Service ko sa YFC, sermon ng mga tao...SOBRANG STRESSED ako to the point na nawala na ang tiwala ko sa sarili ko at nanghina na ang kaluluwa ko. Yung tipong kaunting problema lang, big deal na sa akin. This happened to me for the past 4 weeks...STRAIGHT! Ang hirap lang makapag cope up. Pagod na pagod na talaga ako. I really don't know what to do. So, I didn't just prayed, I CRIED for HELP to my CHAMPION PARTNER, GOD. Sabi ko, Lord, bless me and help me. I really don't know what to do. Please. Pero mukhang walang naririnig si GOD kasi patuloy na lumalala ang sitwasyon. Nag announce ang HALOS LAHAT ng Professors ko na may QUIZ kami next week...araw-araw, lalo ko pang nafefeel na AKO lang ang nagkakagusto kay Crush (tila one-sided or one way lang)...basta SOBRANG DAMI ng problema...

Dumating sa point na umiiyak na ako kasi it seems na no response si GOD. I decided to attend The Feast Manila. At sabi ko "Lord, please use this time to talk to me. I will open my heart so that I could heart your WORD to me." and the MIRACLE HAPPENED...

While waiting for the communion line to finish, I browse my Feast Bulletin. Well, wala kasi akong magawa noon but then THESE WORDS on the Bulletin STRIKED ME: 

"...The next time you are feeling down, don't worry and don't fret. Give thanks and keep holding on to God's promise of abundant blessings. After all, His promise is that ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR THOSE WHO LOVE HIM." (Cows in the Sky by Jaica)

SOBRANG narealized ko na sinagot ni God lahat ng prayers ko. I believe He is telling me, "My son, fear no more. I am with you always and don't worry about your problems. Just lift it up to Me and everything will be alright. I PROMISE."

Edi tuwang tuwa na ako pero hindi pa pala doon natatapos ang BLESSINGS sakin ni God...

On my way home, I decided to take LRT para kako mabilis pero what I saw after buying the ticket are a great number of crowd waiting for the train to come. Sobrang dami feeling ko, mga 9 na ako makaka uwi but thank God, after some minutes, A train arrived and take note, WALANG LAMAN! Sobrang blessed talaga ako at nakaupo pa ako. And di lang iyon. While the train is at Bambang Station, pagkabukas ng pinto, I heard a LOUD EXPLOSION like of a Gunfire (pero di ako sure kung gunfire nga iyon pero isa lang sigurado ko, may malakas na pagsabog). Naisip ko, what if I took Jeepney on my way home, baka napahamak ako. Maybe GOD planned na sumakay ako ng LRT para ligtas akong makauwi. ANG SAYA LANG! 

Ngayon, masasabi kong mas malakas na ako unlike before. Masasabi ko na mas kaya ko nang harapin ang mga problema sa tulong ni GOD.

(I Stand! I Live! I Testify!)

Songs and Lyrics that changed my Life: Part Thirteen

Our God

Chris Tomlin

Water you turned into wine, 

opened the eyes of the blind 

there's no one like you, 

none like You!

Into the darkness you shine 

out of the ashes we rise

 there's no one like you 

none like You!

Our God is greater, 

our God is stronger, 

God you are higher than any other.

Our God is Healer, 

Awesome in Power, 

Our God! Our God!

Into the darkness you shine 

out of the ashes we rise 

there's no one like you, 

none like You!

Our God is greater, 

our God is stronger, 

God you are higher than any other.

Our God is Healer, 

Awesome in Power, 

Our God! Our God!

Our God is greater, 

our God is stronger, 

God you are higher than any other.

Our God is Healer, 

Awesome in Power, 

Our God! Our God!

And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.

And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.

And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.

And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.

What could stand against.

Our God is greater, 

our God is stronger, 

God you are higher than any other.

Our God is Healer, 

Awesome in Power, 

Our God! Our God!

Our God is greater, 

our God is stronger, 

God you are higher than any other.

Our God is Healer, 

Awesome in Power, 

Our God! Our God!

And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.

And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.

And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.

And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.

Then what could stand against.

Our God is greater, 

our God is stronger,

God you are higher than any other.

Our God is Healer, 

Awesome in Power, 

Our God! Our God!

Our God is greater, 

our God is stronger, 

God you are higher than any other.

Our God is Healer, 

Awesome in Power, 

Our God! Our God!

Songs and Lyrics that changed my Life: Part Twelve

Potter's Hand

Hillsong

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful savior

I know for sure all of my days are held in your hands

Crafted into your perfect plans

You gently called me into your presence

Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit

Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life

Through your eyes

I'm captured by your holy calling

Set me apart. I know you're drawing me to yourself

lead me, Lord. I pray

Oh Take me, mold me, use me, fill me

I give my life to the potter's hand

Oh Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me

I give my life to the potter's hand

You gently call me into your presence

Guiding me by your holy spirit

Teach me dear lord to live all of my life through your eyes

I'm captured by your holy calling

Set me apart. I know you're drawing me to yourself

lead me, Lord. I pray

Oh Take me, mold me, use me, fill me

I give my life to the potter's hand

Oh Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me

I give my life to the potter's hand

Oh Take me, mold me, use me, fill me

I give my life to the potter's hand

Oh Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me

I give my life to the potter's hand

Songs and Lyrics that changed my Life: Part Eleven

Made Me Glad

Hillsong

I will bless the Lord forever

I will trust Him at all times

He has delivered me from all fear

He has set my feet upon a rock 

I will not be moved

And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield 

My strength 

My portion 

Deliverer 

My shelter 

Strong tower

My very present help in time of need

Whom have I in heaven but You

There's none I desire besides You

You have made me glad 

And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield 

My strength 

My portion 

Deliverer 

My shelter 

Strong tower

My very present help in time of need

You are my shield 

My strength 

My portion 

Deliverer 

My shelter 

Strong tower

My very present help in time of need

You have made me glad 

And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield 

My strength 

My portion 

Deliverer 

My shelter 

Strong tower

My very present help...

You are my shield 

My strength 

My portion 

Deliverer 

My shelter 

Strong tower

My very present help in time of need

My very present help in time of need

My very present help in time of need

The Art of Loosing Myself in Bringing You Praise

As the title goes, yan ang gusto ko, to give everything to God, to give my all but then I failed...

Today, on the last day of November in the year 2012, I lead a number of people in a worship, that is, in bringing praise to God. Sa una, ang ayos ayos. Maayos ang naging execution ng simula ko pero habang tumatagal, lalo akong kinakabahan. Sa sobrang kaba ko, na Mental Block ako. Well, not just once, not just twice or thrice, but sa buong Worship duration. Thoug its my First time, nakakahiya at nakakalungkot. Nakakahiya kasi medyo nabigo ko ang expectations ng Chapter ko. Nakakalungkot kasi HINDI KO NABIGAY ANG BEST KO. ANG FAIL KO. 

Habang nararamdaman ko ang hiya during the worship, at the back of my mind, sinasabi ko...

NAKAKAHIYA! ANG FAIL KO! Idol ko pa naman sina Bro. Bo Sanchez at Bro. Obet Cabrillas sa pagsasalita at sina Bro. Migs Ramirez at Bro. Audee Vilaraza PERO ANG FAIL KO...DI AKO MAGIGING TULAD NILA. Kahit na gusto ko makainspire ng mga tao, mukhang di ko kaya.

But then after the worship, naalala ko lang yung message ni Bro. Bo Sanchez sa Kerygma Conference 2012 last week: "Do not disqualify YOURSELF to the CALL of GOD just because you're ordinary. THE AUDITION HAS BEEN CANCELLED...YOU'RE IN!!!!" 

After this, I realized na fail ang kinalabasaan ng paglelead ko kasi I didn't gave my all. May doubt ako na baka mag fail nga. Di ako nag trust fully kay God. The next time around, I promise to REALLY GIVE MY ALL and TRUST in GOD

Nagpapasalamat din ako sa isang taong pinagaan ang loob ko at inspired me to go on and continue :"> 

SUPER BLESSED: The best things in life are FREE: Introduction and Part 1

Ang bahaging ito ng aking blog ay nagpapakita kung gaano ako ka-SUPER BLESSED because of God. This post is not to brag the blessings that I have but this is to inspire YOU, my readers, to just TRUST in God kahit gaano pa karami ang problems mo and when you do, I'm sure, you to will become SUPER BLESSED!

Part 1:

OO, vertically challenged ako pero I know that I will SOAR up high and reach my dreams because mayroon akong Champion Partner! 

OO, medyo kapos ako sa pera pero God provides!

Sample:

Hindi ko alam pero kasi gusto kong makapunta ng Kerygma Conference 2012: Champions, Arise! pero kasi ang mahal ng ticket pero praise God, NAKAKUHA AKO NG LIBRENG TICKET!!! ANG GALING LANG NI LORD! Now, I'll be part of the thousands who will attend the BIGGEST CATHOLIC INSPIRATIONAL EVENT OF THE YEAR!!!! We will altogether Praise and Glorify Your Name!!! WHOOOO!!!!

OO, Awkward akong sumayaw pero alam kong kahit ANG PANGIT KONG SUMAYAW, alam kong may napapasaya akong tao. Besides, I'm Dancing not to impress but to express and to bring smile and laughter to others.

OO, WALA akong LOVELIFE pero I know may nilaan si God para sa akin and I am SUPER BLESSED kasi God has provided me with people na masasabi kong nagmamahal sa akin ng lubos. I guess, Bestest Chris and Papa Monch are some of those people na LAGING NAGPAPASAYA SA AKIN! :) Di ko alam kung ano na ako kung wala sila! 

Chapter 7 or Chapter 9: The Confusion

I'm now in a situation wherein my heart is confused with whom it beats for.

*Chapter 7 has been a very good friend and a special person to me. Nasa tabi ko siya lagi sa tuwing magtatagumpay at mabibigo ako. Hindi niya ako pinapabayaan. Lagi niya akong pinapatawa at pinapasaya. Pero hindi ko alam kung iitutuloy ko kasi alam kong kahit ganoon kami ka close, wala pa rin akong pag-asa sa kanya. 

*Chapter 9 has been a good, nice, and special person to me. Lagi niya akong pinapasaya sa tuwing ako ay nalulumbay pero hindi gaya ni Chapter 7, minsan wala siya kapag kailangan ko siya pero kapag nandiyan siya, talagang pinapadama niya ba ako ay mahalagang tao. Hindi kami ganoon ka close compared kay Chapter 7 pero tingin ko may may pag-asa ako sa kanya ng 1% pero ano bang magagawa ng 1% kung sa pagkakaalam ko, may ibang tinitibok ang puso niya.

Sa ngayon, wala na akong nakikitang pag-asa sa kahit sino kanilang dalawa. Ewan ko nga ba kung bakit ganito ako. Always falling for the wrong person or maybe always falling for the right person at the wrong time. Hindi na talaga ako nagkaroon ng matinong emotional life. Minsan naiingit na lang ako sa mga tao sa paligid ko lalo na sa mga lalaking nagtatagumpay sa taong pinangarap ko. Minsan din narealize ko na pakiramdam ko mas worth it pa ako sa kanila pero bakit sila ang pinili ng mga pangarap ko. Ano ba ang wala sa akin na mayroon sila. Lagi na lang ako FRIENDZONED. What have I done wrong? Ni kahit kailan hindi ko hinayaang pumatak ang luha nila sa kanilang mga mata - kahit na ang kapalit noon ang pagpatak ng aking mga luha. Ano ba ang mga mali ko? Bakit ba sa lagi na lang akong broken-hearted. Nagtataka na nga yung mga tao sa paligid ko kung bakit daw wala pa akong lovelife. May itsura naman daw ako at masaya naman akong kasama. Ang sinasagot ko na lang sa kanila, I AM ALWAYS REJECTED AND I DON'T KNOW WHY. 

Tingin ko hindi ako confused kung sino dapat. Tingin ko confused ako kung itutuloy ko pa ba...Sa sobrang sakit ng mga nakaraan ko, para bang nawalan na ako ng lakas ituloy ang kasalukuyan...lalo na kung ganito ang sitwasyon. 

Ang sakit sakit lang masaktan ng paulit ulit. Oo, maraming isda sa dagat pero tingin mo gaganahan ka pa bang mangisda kung ni minsan hindi mo naranasan makahuli ng kahit isang dilis lang. Nakakapagod din lalo na kung akala mo siya na, wala pa pala. Yung tipong ang sakit na nga ng feeling na pinaasa, nakakadagdag pa sa pagod. Yung tipong magpapakita sila ng motibo parang ipagpatuloy mo pero sa huli mawawala na lang parang bula. Sana naman sa simula pa lang, hindi na nagpakita ng motibo para hindi na ako umasa...

Maraming makakabasa nito na magsasabi na over naman ako or what. I appreciate their criticisms pero ang masasabi ko lang na itong post na ito ay subjective at paraan ko lang ng paglalabas ng kung ano ang nasa loob ko.  

*Ang tagal ng aming pagkakakilanlan ay mananatiling tago upang panatilihing lihim ang kanilang katauhan

Stand Up and Rise!: I am SUPER BLESSED

Before it seemed that everything was IMPOSSIBLE but then God TAGGED with me and said, "Son, Everything will be alright. I'm in charge!" He made feel that I am YOUNIQUE  and he BROUGHT THE HOLY me BACK, and now I am grateful that I'm now receiving abnormal, bountiful, extraordinary, UNLI! Blessings! 

These talks inspired me to continue my journey in life kahit na hirap na hirap na ako.

(I Stand! I Live! I Testify!)

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I can't understand

Kaninang umaga, kasama ko ang isa kong friend papasok ng school. Nung nakarationg na kami sa Espanya Blvd., Nakita namin ung taong "special" sakin. Bumaba kami ng friend ko sa sinasakyan namin. And what happens next is nagkulitan kami nung special na tao sakin...nakalimutan ko na ung kasama kong friend papasok. After some time, nagkaroon na kami ng serious talk ng special friend na yoon. At ako naman, todo effort para pagaanin yung dinadala niya. At after some time, picture perfect na uli :">...and then...

NAGISING AKO!!! Panaginip lang pala! Akala ko tooo. As in parang too lahat ng mga pangyayari!

Natatandaan ko yung sinabi sakin ng Psychology professor ko (na Idol ko din) na kaya natin napapanaginipan yung mga ganung bagay ay dahil we desire na mangyari iyon sa totoong buhay at dahil parang imposible mangyari iyon sa toong buhay, our mind's last resort is to make a dream. At sabi niya, kung gusto ko daw magkatotoo iyon, I must do something about it. Pero...

I feel na may "curse" sakin. Because whenever na napapanaginipan ko ang mga masasayang bagay, yung tragic counterpart noon ang nagyayari...HINDI ko na talaga alam ang gagawin :(

18th: I never thought I would be this special

SEPTEMBER 14, 2012 It was a typical Friday. Wala akong ineexpect na kahit ano. As in WALA. Noong nasa school ako, my friends keep on asking me, "Theo, ano plano mo tomorrow? Birthday mo ah. Saan tayo bukas?" Wala akong maisagot. Kasi naman walang wala akong pera tsaka I decided to celebrate my Birthday with the less fortunate. After class, umuwi ako sa tita ko and then pumunta ako sa SM Manila para mag "The Feast Manila" I decided kasi na I'll have a pre-celebration with God. Sa sobrang saya ko, nag gm ako but then mali ang nasend ko. Nasend ko ung drafts ko na kung saan galit ako. Ewan. Tas nagulat ako na ung isa kong friend na si Iya ay tinext ako. Sabi niya pupuntahan daw niya ako. Sobrang saya ko kasi I never thought na pupuntahan niya ako. Sobrang saya kasi nadala ko siya sa Happiest Place on Earth. Sobrang saya kasi First time nya umatend ng The Feast.

SEPTEMBER 15, 2012 Ito na ang araw na pinakainaantay ko. Sobrang excited na ako pumasok kasi gusto ko maranasan ang "Happy Birthday" na boses sa gate ng school but then, kakalungkot lang kasi nasuspend ang klase. Pero aun, naging maligaya uli ako kasi nilibre ako nila Jom, Jed, Kim, at Bestest Chris sa UAAP UST vs ADMU ticket. Saya lang kasi First time ko un na live. (Yun nga lang, talo UST) Pero di pa un ang best part. Ang best part noong araw na iyon ay syempre nung dinagsa ako ng surprises. Una, kay Nay Sheree. Nasurprise ako kasi todo effort sya sa message. Ang haba :) tas may pic ko pang ewan :P. Pangalawa, sa surprise artwork sakin ni Idol Nina :) Sobrang tuwa lang ako kasi todo effort talaga sya sa pagbati :"> At syempre sa surprise sakin ni Bestest Chris at si Pam :") Todo silang nagulit sa mga kaklase ko nong High School at College para sa mga message nila. Sobrang tuwa talaga ako sa mga efforts nila :"> Sobrang saya din kasi Ang dami ding bumati sa akin sa text, tawag (Namely Athena), fb, twitter at personal greetings. ANG SAYA TALAGA!

SEPTEMBER 16, 2012 Aun, Post celebration ko sa The Feast PICC syempre with my closest and most treasured na kaibigang lalaki, si Monch. Sobrang sya lang ng araw na iyon kasi todo kami kwentuhan lalo na sa aming mga buhay puso :"> ALAM NA :))))) Aun, may mga bumati parin.

SEPTEMBER 17, 2012 Pumasok lang ako bilang isang ordinaryong mag-aaral. Wala na akong ineexpect kasi alam ko ng tapos na ang kaarawan ko. But then, my YFC-UST FAMILY surprised me! Lalo na si Partner Maan, Ate Armin at Kuya Klenk. Sobrang saya ko lang. Todo Effort talaga si Partner Maan sa pagsurprise sakin :") Kinumpleto lang nila ang araw ko. Tas si Gerika pa. I never thought na sobrang ganun ako magiging mahalaga sa kanya. Kakakilala ko lang kasi sa kanya but then sobrang feeling ko napakahalaga ko sa kanya. Sobrang thankful din ako sa kanya kasi binigyan nya ako ng book. Kahit na hindi talaga ako pala basa, binabasa ko un. Sobrang tinetresure ko lang kasi ung regalo nya. Sa araw din na ito sobrang naging masya ako kasi at last, NATUPAD na yung pangarap kong mai-spend ang aking kaarawan kasama ang mga less fortunate. Kakalungkot lang kasi kahit na pinakain mo na sila at lahat lahat, mas gusto parin nila ang pera...sigh....

Ang Artwork ni Nina :) Sobrang natuwa talaga ako kasi sobrang effort :"> Nga pala, pangit daw to sabi niya. Hindi naman ah.

Compilation ng mga messages ng 2CS-B at YFC-UST Family . Syempre yung nasa gitna ay kay partner Maan  ^_^

Ang Gawa ni Chris na scrapbook na pangit DAW. Nako Bestest, the best ka talaga :") 

I never thought na sobra akong papahalagahan ng mga tao sa paligid ko. Akala ko worthless ako. Akala ko basura lang ako but then they just proved na may worth ako sa buhay nila. I don't care naman kung may regalo sakin or wala pero ung iparamdam nila sa iyo na sobra kang mahalaga sa buhay nila, sobra sobra na iyon sa akin.

Tragic Experience: Part Four

Again, I think I'm falling for someone. Well, I really don't know if I'll let this feeling bloom to its fullest or kill it before someone suffers. 

Naranasan ko na ma fall ng ilang beses. Fall na ma-fall in love and ma fall as in madapa kasi it seems na lagi akong rejected. Ewan ko nga kung bakit eh. I've done naman my best to show na I really care for her. I had endured a lot of pain maging masaya lang siya but then, wala talaga eh. Ang sakit lang talaga umasa sa wala. Btw, I never had a "intersecting" relationship...puro "asymptotic" (ito yung mga relasyon na akala mo sya na, sa huli, mawawala pa. Nakabase ito sa uri ng graph sa math na kung saan ang curve ay lalapit at patuloy na lalapit lang sa isang value pero kahit kailan, hindi ito magiintersect sa value na ito) at parallel lang (dito naman, kahit anong gawin, hindi lumalapit...as in same distance all throughout...para bang parallel lines)

Minsan, naitatanong ko sa sarili ko, ano ba ang pagkukulang ko? Nag mahal lang naman ako ng tapat pero bakit ganito ang isusukli sakin, KASAWIAN...KABIGUAN. Sa sobrang dami ko ng kabiguan, feeling ko may phobia na akong mag mahal...or I guess may takot na ako magmahal kasi may phobia na akong MASAKTAN. 

Ganito ba kapag maliit, patpatin, payatot, mabait? Feel ko kasi, ang mga in ngayon ay ung matatangkad, macho, bad boy effect. Ewan ko ba...pero one thing's for sure, hindi ako magiging pa bad boy effect, maangas effect, or what magustuhan lang. Naniniwala parin ako na may isang prinsesang makakaapreciate sa mga bagay na pinaggagawa ko sa buhay.

Going back, feel ko nafafall na naman ako sa isang tao. Ewan ko pero kasi parang ang labong maging masaya ako. Ang hirap pala umamin lalo na pag natatakot ka ng masaktan. Hindi ko kasi alam ang gagawin ko kapag sinabi na naman sakin ang linyang "I'm Sorry Theo...I'm sorry kasi..." Ang sakit lang. Nakakainis lang kasi madalas kung sino pa ang hindi tapat, sila pa yung nasasabihan ng matamis na oo. Life is not fair ika nga. 

Itutuloy ko pa ba itong nararamdaman ko sa iyo o sadyang pangarap lang talaga kita...basta kung masaktan man or hindi, gagawin ko lang ang lagi kong ginagawa, ang magmahal ng tapat at laging pasayahin ang taong iyon sa abot ng aking makakaya...

...kung mabibigyan lang sana ng pagkakataon...

Stand Up and Rise!: My Living 'Feast' Testimony

Ewan ko lang kung ano ang meron but napansin ko na kung anong worship song ang madalas kong patugtugin from Monday-Saturday, un ang papatugtugin at kakantahin ng Sunday. I really don't know why pero sobrang saya lang kasi medyo alam ko na ang mga songs Sunday so talagang nakakasabay ako.

(I Stand! I Live! I Testify!)

Towards 1000 Happy Lives: A Living Testimony: Part One: Humility

On our way home, me and a friend of mine were talking of various things at after some time, napunta sa isang bagay. May naiinis/ naiingit daw sa akin. Nagulat ako kasi, sakin? maiingit?. Kinabahan talaga ako. Tas aun daw, kasi daw, ang bilis ko daw pumick-up sa lessons. basta para bang kinukumpara ako nung taong iyon sa kanya. After hearing that, feel ko, ang galing galing ko na. Then here comes the twist, after noon, napagusapan namin ung isa naming friend na sobrang talino, sobrang sipag, sobrang bait, sobrang saya sa buhay, at sobrang positive. At after noon, I realized something, NA SOBRANG HUMBLE NYA after all ng blessings sa kanya, SOBRANG HUMBLE NYA. Nahiya ako sa sarili ko. As in. Sobrang hiyang hiya ako. Narealize ko, na bless lang ako, yumabang na ako. Ang sakit lang diba? NAPAHIYA AKO. Alam kong plano talaga ni God iyong nangyaring iyon. I know na gusto sakin sabihin ni God, "Anak, hidi kita pinabayaan. Sobrang binigyan kita ng napakaraming blessings pero napansin ko, ang yabang mo na. Please anak, be humble. Don't let your pride ruin your life" Tagos lang talaga. I realized na if I want to serve Him, dapat maging humble ako ALL the TIMES. Ang hirap lang lalo na kung naparaming achievement ang nakamtan mo. 

Now, I believe the Lord is telling me right now, "Anak, Mahal na mahal kita! Alam kong mahirap maging humble pero tandaan mo anak, nandito lang Ako para gabayan ka. Huwag kang matakot sa masasama. Magtiwala ka lang sa akin at hindi kita papabayaan. Anak, kung gaano ka ka blessed, sana ganun ka rin ka humble. Anak, i share mo lang lahat ng mga blessings mo sa iba. Huwag kang magyayabang but rather, try to reach out sa mga taong namomroblema at help them na umangat. Anak, alam kong kaya mo iyan. I love you!"

God, salamat lang po dahit habang maaga pa, naparealize nyo na agad ang kamalian ko. From now on, I'll try to help those people who needs me in the best way I can.

I'll try to be humble in each and every thing that i will do.

Towards 1000 Happy Lives: A Living Testimony: An Introduction

I've decided na kasabay ng pagtupad ko sa aking pangarap ang paggawa ng panibagong bahagi ng aking blog. Dito itutukoy ang mga karanasan, mga natutunan, mga kabiguan, at kung anu-ano pa man na naganap habang nasa landas ako patungo sa aking pangarap. Layunin nitong makapag "inspire" ng tao at kung sakaling may maapektuhan sa mga nakasaad dito, walang intensyon ang manunulat na siraan ang mga tao, bagkus, gaya ng nasaad, ito ay nilikha upang makapag inspire, hindi manira.

T.A.C.M.

To LOVE a Thousand people before I die

Minsan sa buhay, dumating yung point na tinanong tayo ng ibang tao tungkol sa pangarap natin. Madalas nating sabihin na gusto nating maging milyonaryo, makapunta sa ibang bansa, maging artista (isa sa pinakamadalas kong naririnig na sagot), magkaroon ng napakaganda/ gwapong asawa at cute na mga anak, makapagtabaho sa isang kilalang kompanya, makaimbento ng gamot sa AIDS o kung anu-ano pa mang mga sakit, maging magaling na imbentor, maging sikat, maging pangulko ng isang bansa, maging pulis, doktor, sundalo, abugado, pintor, "engineer", "nurse", o kung anu-ano pa mang mga karera sa buhay.

Oo, aminado akong pinangarap ko din ang mga ganitong bagay. Pinangarap kong maging doktor nung ako ay nasa kinder pa lamang. Pinangarap kong makapagtabaho sa Pixar Animation Studios, Disney Animation Studios, o di kaya naman sa Dreamworks Animation SKG. Pinangarap kong maging isang game designer sa Amerika. Pinangarap kong maging mayamang programmer o di kaya naman isang software analyst sa Singapore. Pinangarap kong makapunta sa Disneyland. Pinangarap kong maging ubod ng yaman. Ung tipong 1,000,000 pesos per day ang sweldo ko. Pinangarap ko ding umibig sa isang "prinsesa". Yung prinsesa na mamahalin ako kung sino ako. Yung hindi ako iiwan. Pinangarap ko ding iahon ang pamilya ko sa kahirapan. Piangarap kong magiging close ako sa pamilya ko.Pinangarap ko na laging bukas ang AirCon sa kwarto. Pinangarap ko ding magkaroon ng napakalaking bahay, ung Modern-Minimalist ung style. Pinangarap kong magkaroon ng computer na napakabilis. OO, ang dami kong pangarap sa buhay, marami dito, tila imposible ko makamtan...

Ngunit nagbago ang pananaw ko sa salitang pangarap...

Noong niyaya ako mag The Feast ng kaibigan/ mommy ko, wala talaga akong alam kung ano iyon at noong nasa kalagitnaan na ako ng session, sabi ko sa sarili ko, "Ah, ang corny, ito na ang first and last ko" pero may nangyari...

Noong niyaya ako ni Bestest na mag camp sa CFC-Youth for Christ, sobrang auko talaga sumama kasi hindi ko alam kung ang ang meron. Natatakot ako. Niyaya din ako ng friend ko na mag camp since head sya sa isang lugar. AUKO talaga mag camp, but something happened...

SOMETHING HAPPENED...well, simple lang, GOD called me closer to His love. Well, aun, kung dati, auko talaga pumunta sa Catholic Prayer Meeting na iyon, well now, ADIK na ADIK na akong pumunta. I make sure na every Sunday and/ or every Friday makakapag The Feast ako. Kung dati ayokong mag camp. Well, ngayon, gusto ko nang maging SERVICE TEAM sa camp.

What's the point of telling these stories. Simple lang, Laging mangingibabaw ang God's Plan. At dahil sa YOUTH FOR CHRIST, dahil sa LIGHT OF JESUS FAMILY, binago nila ang papanaw ko sa salitang PANGARAP. Kung dati rati iniisip ko lang ang sarili ko, ngayon, my greatest dream in life: TO BRING 1000 PEOPLE CLOSER TO GOD'S LOVE BEFORE I DIE. MADALING SABIHIN, pero I tell you, MAHIRAP gawin lalo na sa 18 years old na payatot na pandak tulad ko at lalo na kung wala kang commitment at conviction sa pangarap mo because I tell you, IF YOUR DREAM IS IN LINE WITH GOD'S PLAN FOR YOU, HE'LL HELP YOU THROUGH IT. Kaya kahit gaano ito ka heavy, I Claim the VICTORY! At alam ko, habang dahan dahan kong tinutupad ito, God will give me the little dremas in my heart...one by one tulad ng love of my life. I believe na God will give my a "princess" na mamahalin ako ng lubusan at tutulungan ako sa pagkamit ng pangarap ko. Alam kong bibigyan ako ni God ng financial assistance kasi alam nyang kulang ang resources ko. Alam kong God will provide. ALAM kong HINDI ako PAPABAYAAN ni GOD!

"I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me"

-Philippians 4:13

Chapter 7, 8, and 9: A painful encounter

Sigh, eto na naman tayo, nasaktan na naman...Ito ang sulyap sa mga pangyayari

Chapter 7:
Ung feeling na ang tagal mo ng may gusto sa kanya at kahit gaano na kayo ka close, di mo masabi ang nararamdaman mo kasi alam mong WALA KA TALAGANG PAG-ASA...
Chapter 8:
Ung feeling na crush mo tapos alam mong wala kang pag-asa kasi sa Physical Deficiencies mo...
Chapter 9:
Ung feeling na gusto mo sya pero feeling mo mayroon na syang iba at ayaw mo ng makialam sa buhay nila at kung sakaling wala pa, feel mo wala ka ding pag-asa kasi everytime na magkasama kayo, para bang She see you as a friend lang kahit na medyo matatamis ang pag-uusap nyo kapag hindi nyo kaharap ang isa't isa

Songs and Lyrics that changed my Life: Part Ten

Running

Hillsong

Ready at the line looking out

Looking out to all that's ahead

When every heart

Confesses Your Name

We're pressing on towards that Day

We're never gonna stop

We're never gonna stop

Letting of every mistake

Throwing off the chains of resistant

All that will remain

A passion for Your Name

Burning as we run this race

We're never gonna stop

We're never gonna stop

We're never gonna stop

We're never gonna stop

We are running

Chasing after all that You are

We are running

'Cause all that You are

Is all that we want Lord

Every stride is taken in faith

Every step compelled by Your grace

We're taking up our cross

No matter what the cost

We give it all to go Your way

We're never gonna stop

We're never gonna stop

Onwards we draw towards Your light

Desperate we seek to know You more and more

Further to look beyond ourselves

To Your love

To your love

Prologue? Wag naman sana...

It seems that this 7th Chapter would be the most difficult chapter I ever had...

Random Thoughts #14

Yung feeling na habang tumatagal...lalo akong nawawalan ng pag-asa sa iyo. :( Di ko alam kung aamin pa ako o wag na lang...sobrang masakit masaktan...siguro lalo na sa iyo. Nahihinuha koi...simula na ito ng either Chapter 7 ng kabiguan o ng Sole Chapter ng kaligayahan...

Random Thoughts #13

Nagsimula ito lahat noong TREXO eh...bakit pa?
#BakitIkawPa

The Best and Happiest Experiences in Life are out of our Comfort Zones: Part 1: Service as a thing that they call "suffering"

Serving the Lord doesn't mean that we will not suffer anymore but in the contrary we would suffer more...but these Sufferings are Gifts that cannot be compared to all the riches in the universe. Why? First of all, these things that we call "sufferings" are not really meant to hurt us. Yes, most of the time, it hurts...but after some time we would then realize that these are gifts. These "sufferings" are meant to mold us for a better one. 

We might barely understand its purpose on the beginning but rest assured,  it will help us to improve our whole self. So if the time would come that we would tell ourself, "Bakit ganito...I'm serving the Lord pero napapasama pa ata ako"...Let us put into our heart and mind that these things that we call sufferings are gifts that can be compared to an expensive present that is wrapped with newspaper. Yes...at first, it looks disgusting right? but after opening it, we would see its true value. That is what Service is. At first, it may cause pain in us but after some time...we would realize that without it, our life would be more miserable. 

Let Go and Let God!

Random Thoughts #12

May nakapagsabi sa akin na parang napapadalas na daw ang pagpunta ko sa "Happiest Place on Earth", ang The Feast PICC...well, napatawa lang ako pero alam nyo ba kung bakit? 

SOBRANG NAKAKAADIK LANG ANG GOD'S LOVE at SOBRANG NAKAKAADIK LANG MAGING MASAYA!!!

Yung feeling na gusto at pipilitin mo siya balik-balikan. Ang Galing lang talaga ni Lord kasi hindi Niya ako pinabayaan malubog sa Lungkot. Ang saya lang!

Random Thoughts #11

Bakit sa tuwing magsisimba ako, Puro may kaya at mayayaman ang nakikita kong nagsisimba. Ngunit nakakakita ako ng mga mahihirap...pero hindi sila nagsisimba...pero ang ginagawa nila ay magbenta at mamalimos. Wala pa talaga akong nakikitang pulubi na pumunta sa simbahan upang magsimba at pasalamatan ang Diyos.

The Feast PICC Second Year Anniversary

Last Sunday, May 27, 2012, I had the Feast PICC alone. Well, even though I'm alone I feel that the opposite. Pano ba naman, kahit na strangers yung mga tao paligid mo, yayakapin ka, kakausapin ka, aakbayan ka...San ka nakakita ng ganung lugar? Sabi nga ng ibang The Feast Attendees..."The Feast PICC is one of the HAPPIEST PLACES on EARTH" At totoo nga :)

Noong Sunday din na iyon...nameet ko si Brother BO SANCHEZ UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL! Ang saya ko lang ng araw na iyon. Nakamayan ko na, nagpa-authograph na, nagpapicture pa. Saan ka pa? Sobrang saya lang na makilala ang tinatawag ko na "The Person that Inspired Thousands of People through the Word of God" (Well, hindi lang siya ang applicable sa title na ito)

Ito ay ilan sa mga larawan na aking nakunan noong araw na iyon: (Sorry for the low quality photos. walang flash yung camera ko eh :P)

Ok na sana eh, ang pangit lang ng muka ko :))) Anyways,
 masaya padin akong makilala si Bro. Bo Sanchez :)

Libro na pinapirmahan ko kay Bro. Bo. Sobrang ganda ng
book na ito! Kaka-inspire and you will learn a lot :)