Random Thoughts #7

Kaya ayokong nagpaplano...kasi for sure...99.9%...HINDI MATUTULOY...

My senses and nightmares never failed me #1

Last week, nagkaroon ako ng panaginip/ bangungnot about sa hindi matutuloy na lakad...
Sabi kasi ng iba, kabaligtaraan ng panaginip ang katotohanan ngunit ngayong araw lang, medyo nagkaproblema....at mukang hindi na sya matutuloy...

Yung feeling na millions of pain are in the form of arrow, javelin, dagger, and sword and are now PIERCING you SIMULTANEOUSLY. ANG SAKIT...

Once again, hindi na naman ako binigo ng kutob at panaginip/ bangungot ko...

Random Thoughts #6

Ang Pag-ibig ay parang Stocks...
-Walang kasiguraduhan na may kaagad na kabayaran ang bawat kilos,
-Isang RISK ang pagpasok dito,
-Walang nakakaalam kung ano ang kakahihinatnan ng bawat kilos,
-Maaaring malaki ang makukuha mo o di kaya naman malaki rin ang mawawala sa iyo, at
-Ang minamadali ay walang mararating ngunit ang pinaghirapan ng matagal ay lubos lubos ang kapalit

One of the BEST part of my life is this song: The Best Times

The Best Times

Paranaque Science High School Class of 2011 Graduation Song   

The Best Times of my life

Weren’t all about the perfect places, happy music, or rainbow skies

It’s the tears, it’s the fears, it’s all the uncertainties

It’s laughter, the smiles that makes my days worthwhile

And I should say I’d never make it without you all the way

And I should say I want to…

Stay another moment, Sing another song

Spend a few more hours, making memories to bring along

And I’ll miss all the faces that made me remember just how much I’ve grown

Coz’ these are the Best Times

Back then, we used to wish to make it to the end

Now the last of the days has begun

And I find it hard

To picture ourselves far apart

Still I should say there’s nothing that could ever replace the times

That made me exactly who I am

And I wish I could…

Stay another moment, Sing another song

Spend a few more hours, making memories to bring along

And I’ll miss all the faces that made me remember just how much I’ve grown

Coz’ these are the Best Times

Nobody said this was the end

This goodbye won’t really last forever

Just this once please let me say before we ever miss the days

I love you in so much different ways

We used to wish to make it to the end

Now the last of the days has begun

And I find it hard to picture ourselves far apart

Still I should say there’s nothing that could ever replace the times

That made me exactly who I am            

Stay another moment, Sing another song

Spend a few more hours, making memories to bring along

And I’ll miss all the faces that made me remember just how much I’ve grown

Coz’ these are the Best Times

These are the Best Times

May mga tao na...

Sa totoo lang, ang laki ng pagkakamali ko. Masyado kong hinuhusgahan ang mga tao batay sa "first impression". Bakit?

Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang mga tao bilang isang magandang pakisamahan kahit kakakilala ko pa lang sa kanila, napapanatag na ang loob ko sa kanila not knowing na ibang-iba sila kapag nakilala mo ng lubusan. Sobrang dalas itong nangyayari sa akin lalo na sa unang taon ko sa kolehiyo. Kung baga, kung tingin ko mabait ka, sa iyo ako sasama. Ngunit sobrang mali ito. Naranasan ko na kasi makakilala ng mga taong sobrang bait sa umpisa ngunit sobra naman silang makasaksak sa likod mo. Yung tipong napaka-close niyong dalawa ngunit sadyang ayun, nababalitaan ko na lang na sinasaksak ka na sa likod at kung anu-anong paninira ang ibinabato sa iyo. At yung mga taong akala ko mayabang at masama, sila pa pala ang tutulong sa akin. Kung sino pa yung sobra makapanlait, sila pa pala yung aagapay sa iyo. Sabi nga nila, nasa huli nga ang pagsisisi pero nagpapasalamat parin ako kasi nakilala ko parin yung mga taong akala ko masama, ngunit busilak naman pala ang puso. 

Kaya sa sususnod, gamitin natin ang ating puso sa pagkilala sa tao. Huwag tayong titingin sa pisikal na kanyuan nito. Sabi nga nila: True beauty is seen only when the eyes are closed. 

I guess I have this supernatural power...

Nakaranas o nagkaroon na ba kayo ng kakayahang hindi niyo maipaliwanag o di kana parang ang weird ng bagay na iyon?

The term déjà vu is French and means, literally, "already seen." Those who have experienced the feeling describe it as an overwhelming sense of familiarity with something that shouldn't be familiar at all. Say, for example, you are traveling to England for the first time. You are touring a cathedral, and suddenly it seems as if you have been in that very spot before. Or maybe you are having dinner with a group of friends, discussing some current political topic, and you have the feeling that you've already experienced this very thing -- same friends, same dinner, same topic.

The phenomenon is rather complex, and there are many different theories as to why déjà vu happens. Swiss scholar Arthur Funkhouser suggests that there are several "déjà experiences" and asserts that in order to better study the phenomenon, the nuances between the experiences need to be noted. In the examples mentioned above, Funkhouser would describe the first incidence as déjà visite ("already visited") and the second as déjà vecu ("already experienced or lived through").

As much as 70 percent of the population reports having experienced some form of déjà vu. A higher number of incidents occurs in people 15 to 25 years old than in any other age group.

Déjà vu has been firmly associated with temporal-lobe epilepsy. Reportedly, déjà vu can occur just prior to a temporal-lobe seizure. People suffering a seizure of this kind can experience déjà vu during the actual seizure activity or in the moments between convulsions.

Since déjà vu occurs in individuals with and without a medical condition, there is much speculation as to how and why this phenomenon happens. Several psychoanalysts attribute déjà vu to simple fantasy or wish fulfillment, while some psychiatrists ascribe it to a mismatching in the brain that causes the brain to mistake the present for the past. Many parapsychologists believe it is related to a past-life experience. Obviously, there is more investigation to be done.

Article Retrived from: http://science.howstuffworks.com/science-vs-myth/extrasensory-perceptions/question657.htm

Yung feeling ko na halos lahat (mga 85%) ng napapanaginipan ko, nagkakatotoo at most ng mga kutob ko (mga 90%), nagakakatotoo. Sobrang di ko ito maipaliwanag pero...ewan...ewan talaga...déjà vu lang kaya ito or sadyang supernatural power ito?

Random Thoughts #5

Minsan, may mga bagay talaga na dapat pagisipan, obserbahan ng mabuti, at pagtuunan ng pansin. Minsan, may mga bagay na iba ang kahulugan kapag tinignan lamang sa panlabas na anyo. Minsan dapat nating intindihin ng mabuti ang mga bagay. Gaya ng larawan na ito. Sa una, mukhang maganda ang mensahe nito ngunit kung titignan mo ng maigi, mai ibang kahulugan pala ito. 

Ang larawan ay likha ng malikhaing imahinasyon at isipan ng inyong lingkod.

Random Thoughts #4

Madami nang beses sumubok ngunit wala pa rin. Ilang beses ko din ito pinagisipan at ilang analysis na din ang ginawa ko. at ang resulta, WALA. Imma take a break muna. Aantayin ko na lang na lumabas sa susunod na analysis na may pag-asa na ako.

Random Thoughts #3

Dahil wala akong magawa (wala talagang magawa eh), gumawa na lang ako nito bilang papasalamat sa isa sa mga taong pinakamamahal ko :D <3 :

Random Thoughts #2

So true!

Source: http://9gag.com/gag/3960770

Hopeless Romantic

Hopeless Romantic:

1: A person who daydreams about romantic occasions and dreams of chances where he/she will be able to perform a romantic act to their love, yet never gets the chance to.

2: This person is in love with love. They believe in fairy tales and love. They're not to be confused as stalkers or creepy because that's not what a hopeless romantic is. All hopeless romantics are idealists, the sentimental dreamers, the imaginative, and the fanciful when you get to know them. They often live with rose colored glasses on. They make love look like an art form with all the romantic things they do for their special someone.

3. A hopeless romantic is not the same as a hopeless flirter. A hopeless romantic dreams of who they will spend the rest of their life with and what the two of them will do together. They want to be romanced with sweet simple things and the thoughtful amazing surprises. They dream of being loved but also loving somebody. They don't just want somebody to hold them, they also want to hold someone. They realize that love isn't just about one person but both people, they are hopelessly in love with being loved AND loving back.

4. Someone that thinks of love passionately.

5. A hopeless romantic is one who looks for the a singular person on this world that makes their world come together. They are indeed looking for the man or woman of their dreams. As a result, they prefer not to live in reality. The hopeless romantic knows the reality of love is that reality has no business being in love. This is why they will often perform grandiose gestures that may be seen as unsettling or borderline crazy to non-romantics. But to the fellow few romantics, these same gestures will be adored as beautifully and obscenely quixotic. And such is the "hope" of the hopeless romantic- to not only find the one who loves receiving such love, but loves giving such love. And the true hopeless romantic would always rather give than receive. Because they know then and only then, will there be true love.

Source:  http://www.connectingsingles.com/forum_0_64538_1/definition_of_a_hopeless_romantic.htm

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Well, isang tao ang nagdescribe sa akin bilang isang hopeless romantic. Well, I guess, totoo nga. Paano ba naman, lagi na lang ako sumusubok pero lahat nauuwi sa wala. Nagtataka lang ako, ni hindi ko sila pinaiyak and yet AKO ang pinaiyak nila. Tapos, sabi ng ibang tao, swerte sakin ng taong mamahalin ako kasi sabi nila mabait naman ako, malambing, at kung anu-ano pa and yet, WALA. Ika nga nila, NO GIRLFRIEND SINCE BIRTH. 

Sa tuwing maglalakad ako sa school, madami akong nakikitang naka holding hands. Oo, masama mainggit, pero yun eh...Yun yung nararamdaman ko. Sinasabi ko minsan sa sarili ko, ANO BA ANG PAGKAKAMALI ko.

Isa pa. Sa tuwing nakikinig ako ng mga love songs, imbes na magalak ako, hindi eh. NASASAKTAN lang ako. Paano ba naman, para bang hanggang sa panaginip mo lang mangyayari ang mga nasa lyrics ng mga kantang iyon eh.

Kung hindi napaaga ng dating sa buhay ng isang tao, na late naman kasi may iba na syang gusto. Sigh. Ano ba namang buhay to. Kailan kaya ako tatama ng timing?

Ngayon nga lang parang tumitibok na naman si "red pumping organ" kaya nga lang parang ayoko na kumilos at duma-moves eh. Baka mauwi na naman sa wala. 

Siguro, sadyang may mga taong pinanganak upang laging masawi sa pag-ibig at masasabi kong kasama ako doon. Kung minamalas ka nga naman oh. Or, siguro, malas lang ngayon pero sa future, swerte na at baka makita ko na ang wagas na magmamahal sakin. 

Kailangan ko nang magising sa katotohanan. Di ko muna to gagawing priority besides, 17 years pa lang naman ang inilalagi ko sa mundong ito. Madami pang mangyayari sa aking buhay. Basta, papakasaya muna ako. Ibibigay din sakin ni God ang tamang tao sa tamang panahon.

Remembering the Past: Poreotics Mall Hop

Naalala ko lang kung gano ako kasaya at kabitter ng mga panahong ito. Masaya kasi Nakita ko ang mga IDOL ko up close and personal. Bitter kasi HINDI ako nakabili ng SHIRT nila :( Anyways, naging masya naman ito overall. 

Ito ang ilan sa mga nangyari (Wala palang Picture dito ang Poreotics habang sumasayaw. Naalala ko, nakavid pala yung kanila.): 

Postcard na nabili ni Ian. Inggit ako :(

Mr Fu covering the event 

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Remembering the Past: MDC Medal of Excellence Awardee

Naalala ko pa noon, pinatawag kami sa Guidance Office. Sobrang kinakabahan ako at nagiisip ng kung anu-anong mga posibleng kalokohan ang nagawa ko noong 4th Year ako. Nang makarating kami ng mga kasama ko sa Guidance Office, eto na ang guidance councilor...sinabi niyang pinatawag daw niya kami kasi may masama daw kaming nagawa (sobrang kabado na talaga ako) tas biglang JOKE TIME lang pala. Yoon pala, recipients kami ng award from MDC. SOBRANG nakahinga ako ng maluwag noon. At ayun na nga, Awardee ako for Best in TLE :))) (Kala ko hindi magpa-pay off yung paghihirap ko sa mga plates ko) :)))

Ito ang ilan sa mga nangyari: 

Ang ayoko sa lahat ay yung nagpaplano...

Well, hindi naman sa lahat pero siguro duon lang sa mga taong pinapakisamahan ko. Sobrang nasaktan na ako sa kakaplano eh. For example, Nagplano kami ng isang tao na manunuod ng movie na paborito niya about 6 months before the showing and guess what, HINDI NATULOY. Ang SAKIT diba? Ito, isa pa. Nagplano naman kami ng isa pang tao na pumunta sa isang Sikat na Theme Park ngayong summer. Nga pala, naisip namin iyon noong December 2011 pero ayun, HINDI NA NAMAN NATULOY. Sobrang sakit! Bakit? E umasa ka ba naman kasi sa isang masayang bagay pero eto, WALA.

Btw, mga "kabanata" nga pala sila sa buhay ko. (Kung nagbabasa ka talaga ng blog ko, alam mo ang ibig sabihin ko)

Lesson Learned, Kung ayaw mong masaktan, HUWAG MAGPAPLANO ng isang MASAYANG EVENT ng NAPAKAAGA...lalo na kung related ang mga "kabanata" or ang isang posibleng maging isa.

Sabi nga nila, mas natutuloy pa ang mga biglaang yaya kaysa sa mga planadong events...

It's really hard to decide...

Ang hirap ng ganitong sitwasyon. Yung alam mong nasa isa kang Lose-Lose situation. Here is the sitch:

Inilabas na kasi yung mga available schedule for next semester at ito na ang pagreresearch kuhng ano ang pinakamagandang schedule. Base sa aking pagtatanong, itong specific na section ang pinakamaganda. Let's call it as section x. Pero kasi yung mga kaibigan ko, gusto sa kabilang section. Let's call it as section y. Pero ang plano nila, irearange ung schedule at haluan ng subjects from section z para hindi pressure. Pero kasi I want to be with them pero kasi ang consequences ay Di ganun kagaling ang mga Mentors. At isa pa, yung section y na iyon ang probably na pipiliin ng mga ayaw kong maging ka block pero kung hihiwalay na naman ako, OO, magagaling yung mga mentors pero di ko naman sila makakasama.

Sigh...Ano ba ang pipiliin ko. LOSE-LOSE SITUATION :(( 

Pilit kitang kinakalimutan...

Pilit kitang kinakalimutan sa puso ko...

Oo, tingin ko nahulog na ako sa iyo. Eh sino ba naman ang hindi magkakagusto sayo eh sobra kang mabait at maalalahanin lalo na kung makilala ka pa ng tao ng lubusan, for sure, mahuhulog sila sa iyo. Tignan mo ako...

Oo, gusto na kita pero tingin ko, hanggang lihim na lang ito. Natatakot ako na baka magbago ang tingin at pakikitungo mo sa akin eh. Kaya nga kita pilit kinakalimutan kasi hindi ko kakayanin na mawala ka ng tuluyan.

Taon na tayong lubusan na magkakilala at ayaw ko namang mauwi sa wala iyon kaya pilit kitang kakalimutan kahit itong puso ko'y tumitibok na ata para sa iyo.

Ayaw kong maging Chapter Seven ka sa buhay ko dahil kung sakaling nagkatotoo man, iyon siguro ang magiging PINAKAMASAKIT.

Ayaw ko nang sumubok pang mahalin ka pagkat panigurado ako'y WALANG PAG-ASA

Bakit ba naman kasi sa dinami-dami ng tao sa mundo, IKAW pa? Sigh...

Sa totoo lang, matagal ko na itong nililiim sa iyo. Baka kasi mawala ka sa paningin ko...

Pipilitin ko na lang kalimutan ka sa buhay ko at tanggalan ng puwang sa puso ko. Oo, masakit itong gagawin ko, ngunit mas makakabuti ito kaysa sa sakit kapag sinabi ko sa iyo ito...

Pasensya na aking puso...tingin ko hanggang kaibigan ko lang siya...

I Fell...

Bilang tao, nakakagawa tayo ng mga masasama sa ating mga buhay at madami sa atin na AYAW na ulitin ang mga masasamang bagay na nagawa natin ngunit sadyang tayo ay nabibigo at nakakagawa tayo ng mga masasama. 

Bakit nga ba ang hirap talikuran ng masasamang bagay? Sa una, para bang ang saya saya gumawa ng masama pero sa huli, tayo rin ang masasaktan. Kahit alam natin ito, bakit pa tayo nakakagawa ng masasama.

Gusto ko nang magbago...pero sadyang kahit anong gawin ko, bumabalik-balik parin ako sa masama.

Nagsisisi na ako...ngunit sadyang lagi na akong nahuhulog.

Ang SAKIT na! AYOKO na! 

Random Thoughts #1

Sabi nila, "Maapreciate mo lang ang isang tao o bagay kapag wala na ito sa iyo..."

Ano kaya kung mawala ako, sino kaya ang makaka-apreciate sa akin? Yung mga kinilala ko bang mga kaibigan, talaga bang kaibigan ko up until the end?

Sana naman hindi ko na kailangan mawala para lang makilala ang mga taong MAGMAMAHAL SAKIN NG LUBUSAN.

Wala lang. Naisip ko lang...

My One and Only "Hasbond"

Yung feeling na ang hasbond mo ay babae :) Well, tawagan lang naman iyon. Sa katunayan, she is one of the best persons that I met and have in my life. 

Una kaming nagkakilala noong 3rd year high school kami. Masasabi kong she CHANGED my point-of-view sa buhay. Before kasi, I was a loner but then when I met her, binago niya iyon. Paano? Well, kaya lang naman kasi ako naging loner ay feeling ko walang taong tumatanggap sa akin. Well, binago niya iyon. Sa katunayan, sobrang close kami eh. Sa sobrang close namin, naging tawagan na namin ay Hasbond at Wayp. Siya ang NAGIISANG Hasbond ko at Ako naman ang Wayp niya.

Sobrang natutuwa ako sa kanya. Biruin mo, laging nakasmile kahit na medyo problemado siya. Tapos, naalala ko, Ang taas ko sa isang Test namin dahil sa pagrereview niya sa akin.

Gusto niyo na ba malaman kung sino ito? Ito lang naman si Erika Panganiban, ang aking Hasbond at isa sa mga Anghel ko sa buhay. 

Eka, alam kong medyo nagseselos ka about sa alam mo na, pero ito lang tandaan mo, Ikaw lang naman ang isa sa mga nagpabago sa pananaw ko. At sobrang Best Friend din kita noh. Salamat nga pala sa pagsuporta at sa pagsakay sa mga trip ko at pasensya na kung sakaling nasaktan kita. Basta tandaan mo lang, kapag kailangan mo ako, dito lang ako sa tabi mo :D

Inspire.Motivate.Energize

April 14, 2012

Dancing has been a part of my life since high school and crews from America's Best Dance Crew has been my inspiration since then.

During this day, gumising ako ng maaga upang maghanda sa pagpunta ko sa SM Southmall. Sa sobrang aga, nakapunta ako doon bago pa ito magbukas. Pero bakit nga ba napakaaga? Well, excited? Hahaha :))) Actually, yoong pinunta ko doon ay mga 5:00 pm pa :))))) Pero aus lang. Sobrang Worth it yoong ipinunta ko doon. Nakita mo ba naman Ang mga Idol mo sa I.aM.mE. Sina Pacman, Millie, Moon, 747, Jaja, at ang pinagkakaguluhan ng buong Pilipinas, si Chachi. Sobrang cool nilang sumayaw. Kung naamaze na ako sa performances nila sa mga videos sa internet, MAS NAKAKA-AMAZE pa lalo sila sa Personal. Ito ay ilan sa mga napanuod ko noong sabado: 

Sobrang siksikan dito pero sobrang WORTH IT. Salamat sa I.aM.mE. for Inspiring, Motivating, Energizing me! 

Photo used in this blog post are owned by Ian Kalalo

How to see the true beauty?

True beauty is not about the perfection of the external appearance of a person or a thing. True beauty is also not about the perfection of the execution of an action of a person or a thing. And, true beauty is not about trying to be perfect even it is out of reach. 

True beauty CAN ONLY be seen when the eyes are CLOSED. Not literally, of course. It means that true beauty is not about physical appearances but rather, it is about appreciating each physical imperfections of oneself and taking it as a gift. True beauty is about doing what is right for others than oneself. You can determine if that action is righteous for others and not to oneself if others are made happy though you hurt yourself or maybe you became tired of doing something and yet you don't feel the exhaustion and pain because you are happy serving others. TRUE BEAUTY can only be seen and experienced when one had seen his own weakness, shortcomings, and imperfections and yet he still insists going further. 

We just have to close our eyes and open our hearts in order to see it because TRUE BEAUTY is indeed invisible to our eyes but visible to our hearts.

It is really HARD to see the TRUE BEAUTY in each one of us but NO ONE SAID it is IMPOSSIBLE! 

No blog introduction?

Most ng mga bloggers ay naglalagay ng introduction sa panimulang bahagi ng kanilang mga blog. Dito sinasabi nila ang maaaring iexpect ng mga mambabasa or dito ay ipinapakilala nila ang sarili nila sa mga tao.

Pero napansin niyo ba na wala ako noon? Bakit?

Una, privacy. Kahit papaano, internet pa rin ito :D
Pangalawa at ang pinaka-mahalaga, Ayokong diktahan ang mga mambabasa kung sino ako. Gusto ko makilala nila ako sa kanilang sariling "perspective" at pananaw sa pamamagita ng pagbabasa ng aking mga blog posts. Tingin ko, mas makakabuti at maganda ito.

PS: Sorry na lang kung minsan mayroong mga wrong grammar usage sa mga posts ko :D Ang importante dito ay EXPRESSION OF ONESELF (Expressionism than Impressionism; Express than Impress) :D

Songs and Lyrics that changed my Life: Part Five

Breakaway

Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I'd just stare out my window

Dreamin' of what could be

And if I'd end up happy

I would pray

Trying hard to reach out

But when I tried to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I pray 

I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings, and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

And I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I love

I'll take a risk 

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Want to feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get on board a fast train

Travel on a jet plane

Faraway

And breakaway

I'll spread my wings, and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

I won't forget all the ones that I love

I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change

And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging 'round revolvin' doors

Maybe I don't know where they take me

But gotta keep movin' on

Movin' on

Fly away

Breakaway

I'll spread my wings, and I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget the place I come from

I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change

And breakaway

Breakaway

Breakaway

A Finished Love Story: The Sole Chapter: Part Three: Second Song

Because You Loved Me

Celine Dion

For all those times you stood by me 

For all the truth that you made me see 

For all the joy you brought to my life 

For all the wrong that you made right 

For every dream you made come true 

For all the love I found in you 

I'll be forever thankful baby 

You're the one who held me up 

Never let me fall 

You're the one who saw me through through it all 

You were my strength when I was weak 

You were my voice when I couldn't speak 

You were my eyes when I couldn't see 

You saw the best there was in me 

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach 

You gave me faith 'coz you believed 

I'm everything I am 

Because you loved me 

You gave me wings and made me fly 

You touched my hand I could touch the sky 

I lost my faith, you gave it back to me 

You said no star was out of reach 

You stood by me and I stood tall 

I had your love I had it all 

I'm grateful for each day you gave me 

Maybe I don't know that much 

But I know this much is true 

I was blessed because I was loved by you 

You were my strength when I was weak 

You were my voice when I couldn't speak 

You were my eyes when I couldn't see 

You saw the best there was in me 

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach 

You gave me faith 'coz you believed 

I'm everything I am 

Because you loved me 

You were always there for me 

The tender wind that carried me 

A light in the dark shining your love into my life 

You've been my inspiration 

Through the lies you were the truth 

My world is a better place because of you 

You were my strength when I was weak 

You were my voice when I couldn't speak 

You were my eyes when I couldn't see 

You saw the best there was in me 

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach 

You gave me faith 'coz you believed 

I'm everything I am 

Because you loved me 

I'm everything I am 

Because you loved me 

A Finished Love Story: The Sole Chapter: Part Two: First Song

Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now

MYMP

Looking in your eyes I see a paradise

This world that I found is too good to be true

Standing here beside you, want so much to give you

This love in my heart that I'm feeling for you

Let 'em say we're crazy, don't care 'bout that

Put your hand in my hand baby, don't ever look back

Let the world around us just fall apart

Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever

Nothing's gonna stop us now

And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other

Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now

Woh woh oh

I'm so glad I found you, I'm not gonna lose you

Whatever it takes, I will stay here with you

Take it to the good times, see it through the bad times

Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do

Let 'em say we're crazy, what do they know

Put your arms around me baby, don't ever let go

Let the world around us just fall apart

Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever

Nothing's gonna stop us now

And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other

Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us

Ooh, all that I need is you

All that I ever need

And all that I want to do

Is hold you forever, forever and ever

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever

Nothing's gonna stop us now

And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other

Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us

Woh oh oh-oh-oh 

Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now

Hey baby

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever

Nothing's gonna stop us now

And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other

Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now

A Finished Love Story: The Sole Chapter: Part One: Preface

For the past chapters of my life, all I want is to meet a person who...

...would bring me closer to my FATHER and MOTHER
...would make me smile even it seems that all else fails
...would accept me even how terrible I might be
...would accept my mistake and forgive me with all of herself
...would accept her own mistake and be sorry
...would believe and trust me
...would do everything just to make me feel alright
...would protect and fight for me
...would make me feel that I belong
...would see my imperfections as a gift
...would be my crying shoulder even though I never asked for it
...would make TRUTH as a part of her life
...would respect my decisions
...is simple
...would make me the only one for her (besides God, family, and friends)
...would wait for God's perfect time for us to be together forever...and
...would and always LOVE me UNCONDITIONALLY, even I have some shortcomings

In this book, I am NOT the AUTHOR but instead I'm just the protagonist. I know HE is the AUTHOR of the GREATEST LIFE I COULD EVER HAVE and this book is just a part of the vast collection of books, again written by HIM, about the GREATEST LIFE I COULD EVER HAVE in my entire earthly existence. 

Songs and Tragic Chapters

These are the songs that made me remember those "Chapters" in my life...

Chapter One

-Even if by Sam Concepcion

Chapter Two

-Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars

Chapter Three

-Total Eclipse of the Heart by Bonnie Tyler

Chapter Four

-Torn by Natalie Imbruglia

Chapter Five

-Only Hope by Switchfoot

Chapter Six

-One Sweet Day by Mariah Carey featuring Boyz II Men

Chapter One to Six

-Gotta Go My Own Way by Vanessa Hudgens

Everytime I hear these songs, all I can do is reminisce those "pain" that happened to me and break my heart all over again </3

That day...

I remembered...during my second year in high school...

Sunday noon...naaalala ko, hindi pa ako nakakapag-aral noon for our preliminary exam sa Technical Writing pero ayun, sumama pa rin ako sa tatay ko sa kasal ng anak(ata) ng friend nya kung saan siya invited. 

During the mass, sobrang concentrated ako ng biglang mapalingon ako sa isang "Angel". Grabe, na Starstruck ako ng sobra sobra. Ang GANDA niya! Sa mga panahong iyon, nahati na ang atensyon ko, ung isa sa mass, ung isa sa kanya. Gustuhin ko man magconcentrate sa mass, di ko talagang mapigilang tumingin sa kanya. Ang GANDA kasi eh. Parang Anghel. Naaalala ko pa, nakasuot siya noon ng kulay na gray na damit :D

Hindi na talaga naalis ang atensyon ko sa kanya. Kahit sa reception, hinahanap ko siya. Minsan wala, minsan nandun. Naaalala ko din, dun sa reception, kumanta si Kyla! Ang ganda niya at ang galing galing pa! pero anyways, nasa "anghel" parin ang naging atensyon ko pero sobrang dalang ko siya nakita sa reception...hanggang nawala na siya ng tuluyan. :( Hindi ko man lang siya nakilala.

Naging memorable iyong pangyayaring iyon lalo na kapag naririnig ko ang kantang "The Gift" ni Jim Brickman kasi kinanta yoon sa reception :))

Sobrang sayang lang at hindi ko siya nakilala...Sayang... :(

defy LIMITS...

Armstrong chose to defy SPACE...
Bolt chose to defy the SPEED...
Einstein chose to defy ENERGY...
The Wrights chose to defy GRAVITY... 
Archimedes and Descartes chose to defy NUMBERS...
King chose to defy COLOR DISCRIMINATION...
Aquinas chose to defy VISIBLE ENTITY...


Like them...I should defy LIMITS...

Sino nga ba ang mga taong pakikisamahan mo?

Natatandaan ko pa, nasabi sa akin ng isa kong friend na best friend na niya yung specific na tao. Pero nasabi ko sa kanya..."...sigurado ka bang best friend mo na iyan?" 

Hindi sa nagdududa ako sa taong iyon (sa totoo lang pinagkakatiwalaan ko yung taong iyon eh) pero kasi to make a person na nakilala mo in just 10 months as your best friend ay isang desisyon na maaaring" makasira sa pagkatao mo. Well, bakit? Una, 10 months is not enough para makilala mo ng lubusan ang isang tao. It takes YEARS of PAIN and CHALLENGES. Isa pa, para sa akin, masasabi mong mapagkakatiwalaan ang mga taong ito kapag dumating na yung sitwasyon na WHEN ALL ELSE FAILS...yung talagang WALANG WALA ka nang magagawa kung hindi ang umiyak at magdasal sa sobrang sakit. Masasabing maaasahan mo sila kasi HINDI ka nila iniiwan. OO, close nga kayo kapag masaya, pero CLOSE pa nga ba kapag nagkagipitan na? Pangatlo, minsan, yung mga taong hindi mo kinikibo, sila pa pala itong mas may care sa iyo.

Maraming sitwasyon ang makakapagsabi kung totoo nga ba ang isang tao sa kapwa niya at ilan lang ito. Syempre, depende sa iyo yan kung paano mo sila makikilala pero sana isaisip mo na pipiliin mo iyong mga tao na HINDI ka iiwan kahit SILA pa ang NASASAKTAN. Yung willing silang ibigay ang sarili nila KAHIT WALANG KAPALIT. Syempre, huwag mapang-abuso. Suklian mo din naman ang ginagawa nila sa iyo. HINDI ng materyal na bagay kung hindi ng PAGMAMAHAL, PAGAARUGA, at yung PRESENCE mo kapag siya naman ang down na down. Kung baga, WALANG IWANAN.

Tandaan, It takes YEARS OF PAIN, HARDSHIPS, AND CHALLENGES para makilala mo ang mga taong ito. Huwag basta bastang mag co-commit sa isang taong nakilala mo lang basta basta. Hindi purkit masaya kayo, best friend mo na. Masasabi mong Best Friend mo siya sa oras na walang wala ka pero nandyan parin siya para palakasin ka at HATIAN KA SA SAKIT NA NARARAMDAMAN mo...minsan pa nga, AANGKININ niya ang SAKIT, HUWAG ka lang MASAKTAN.

Basta, kapag ang ugali niya parang ASO, mapagkakatiwalaan mo na iyan!